I've been sitting around in a daze all day since I heard the devastating news about the school shooting today in Connecticut.
This evening, about an hour after I put my kids to bed, I had this sudden, frantic urge to hold one of them.
went upstairs, hoping one of my children was still awake so I could climb into bed with them.
All of them but one were
I found Joseph in his room with the lights on, tossing
and turning in bed.
I turned the lights out, tucked him in, and laid
down on the bed next to him.
I watched him and studied his beautiful little face.
I stroked his sandy blond hair.
I put my arms around him and held him so tightly.
And the tears started to roll down my cheeks.
I thought about all
of the mommies out there in Connecticut who don't have their babies to tuck into
So horribly sad.
I don't have the words to say. I don't even know how to pray.
All I can say is,
Come, Lord Jesus!