Have you ever thought, "God, I just can't take it anymore. I just can't go through one more setback, one more test, one more attack from the enemy."
Well, that's definitely been me lately. We've been in a rough patch lately. Lots of setbacks, lots of struggles, lots of attacks. And, I have to admit that I haven't handled them all with faith and trust. More often than not, I've cried my eyes out, questioned God, and given up.
But, still, through it all, GOD HAS BEEN FAITHFUL.
As He ALWAYS IS.
One of the things I've been battling is bad, bad headaches. Migraines, really. And they have been coming more frequently. It's been pretty awful. Since most of the pain has been localized in my eye area, I decided to start off with an eye exam. I thought that maybe my prescription had changed and that was the cause of the headaches.
This morning, after another setback, I put on my favorite worship/warfare cd, and began to worship. I cried out to the Lord and asked him for vision. I asked him to give me vision for my life; to help me to see my life as He sees it.
A couple of hours later, I drove to the eye doctor for my appointment. After the eye doctor examined my eyes, we sat down and had a talk. She said, "With your prescription, you don't need to be wearing glasses at all except for when you drive or in the movie theater."
I was shocked. Tears filled my eyes. I have worn glasses since I was 12 years old! Even my children have never really seen me without glasses on my face.
I could not believe it!
I am pretty sure that these awful headaches I've been getting are related to the fact that my eyes have been working so hard and straining to focus.
As I sat there in that doctor's office, the Lord began to speak to me.
I asked him for vision this morning. And He gave me new eyes.
What He did in the natural today, He is doing in the spiritual as well.
He is giving me vision for my life. He is going to show me His perspective.
And I will look different. My face will look different. My countenance will be changed.
The eye doctor said, "You've been putting these glasses on when you didn't need to be."
And the Lord spoke so sweetly to my spirit,
"Lora, you've been putting things on that I never asked you to put on. You've been carrying burdens that I didn't ask you to carry. When you look through the correct lens, my lens, you will see as you were always meant to see. You will know that everything I do is GOOD. That I am FOR YOU. That I love you. No matter what."
me, no glasses. :)
the little freckle in my eye that i've always loved.
now, you can actually see it!
My circumstances haven't changed.
But God has done a work in my eyes.
My physical eyes and my spiritual eyes.
And I am so thankful!