The sun was shining so beautifully this afternoon. I had to capitalize on that light and take a few pictures. Thus, here's my "self portrait monday". I am standing outside my front door, looking out onto my street. I know, I look pretty pensive and sad. That's how I feel most of the time when I look at my street these days. Lots of empty houses from friends and neighbors that have moved away recently. It makes me sad. I know I am just going through the natural grieving process in a way. I have to grieve in order to heal and make sense of all this transition and change going on around me.
Lots of transition and change is also going on inside of me. God is shifting things around in my heart. He's been calling me back to Him for some time now. I heard somewhere a few years ago that "you are only as close to God as you choose to be". That has definitely been true in my own spiritual life. When I feel far away from God, it's usually because I am not putting in the day-to-day effort to spend time alone with Him. Why do I so often give in to my sad feelings and retreat, instead of running to the One that I know will make me feel better? Help me, Lord, in this season of brokenness, to lean wholly on You.
Any words of wisdom or prayers of encouragement would be greatly appreciated!