As I wait for this baby to come, lots of thoughts have been racing through my head. I have been tempted (and unfortunately, sometimes given in) to being discouraged, angry, fearful and anxious. I spent some much needed alone time with the Lord yesterday and He showed me some pretty amazing things that I really needed to be reminded of.
He showed me that the devil loves to make us forget the character of God, the basic principles of who He is. When we forget these things, we are powerless and easily give in to those negative emotions I wrote of in the first paragraph.
These are the characteristics of God that we need to constantly put in the front of our minds and hearts:
1. God is trustworthy.
2. God is good.
3. God loves me.
4. God wants what is best for me.
5. God can see what I can't see and knows what I don't know.
When we truly get ahold of these basic truths, how can we ever doubt Him and the way He chooses to work in our lives? (esp when we don't understand His ways)
I've been trying to remember these things as I apply them to my situation with waiting for this baby to come. He knows what He is doing and His timing is perfect. Even if I have to be induced, I can trust Him. I can know that He is truly in control and loves me and loves this baby. How comforting that is!
I will be two weeks overdue tomorrow. I went to the ob today and I am 1 cm dialated, 60% effaced and -1 station. They have moved my induction to begin on Monday night. The midwife is going to try using a prostaglandin gel first and hopefully that will kick my labor in gear, without having to use pitocin. They have been really great at trying to work with me so that I will avoid if at all possible using pitocin. I am thankful for that.
I am still praying that I will not have to be induced at all and that I will go into labor on my own before Monday night. We'll see... But either way, I am peaceful, knowing that I serve a God that is much bigger than all of this and that cares for me and for this child way more than I ever could.
Have a blessed night and weekend,